I think that a lot of my problems right now are rooted to my self-control being strong enough. I think that that is my ultimate weakness. I think that it has been since I was a young boy. Anxiety kept me from having self-control when I was a boy. I thought that in high school that had changed but I was reminded in Grade 11 how wrong I was–then it was cockiness that kept me from having self-control. Now I think that it’s something else–me. I have not worked hard enough to master my self. I’ve been fighting the symptoms but not the cause. It was not anxiety or cockiness that stopped me from having self-control. It was the lack of self-control that kept me from controlling those traits. I have to get to the cause. I have to change who I am. I have to master my self. How will I do this, you ask? My first strategy is going to be daily meditation. And it will work.
“Do or do not. There is no try”
–Yoda, Star Wars: Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back