This condition report is two-sided. On the one hand, there is the good news: I’ve got a job and start June 14th. On the other hand, I’ve been having more frequent breakdowns than I’ve had since high school—not exactly a good sign. But I was just backing up some files from this blog (I like surety: I back files up on e-mail and computer memory just in case) and I’ve noticed something: most of the breakdowns were about relatively minor issues. This suggests to me that the issues that triggered the breakdown were not the same as the reasons that caused the breakdown. And I think the cause of the breakdown is uncertainty—about the future, and about myself. This reinforces my desire to increase my meditation practice. This has been complicated of late by allergies but currently I’m on allergy meds that seem to be working. Last night, I meditated for about an hour before I finally drifted off to sleep and I felt very well rested this morning. I feel that meditation is the key to unlocking my potential all I need to do is exercise the discipline I know I have: first to put in the time every day, most likely several times a day, to meditate and secondly to remain in a meditation position for the time required to maximize benefit. Doing this I feel will get over my current uncertainty and if I can make meditation a habit I may be in a very advantageous position going into my third year at the University of Guelph.
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My name is Devin Hogg. I was born and raised in Carnarvon, Ontario, Canada. I moved to Guelph, Ontario, Canada in 2009 for university and lived here ever since. In my free time, I enjoy reading, watching TV and movies, going on long walks, swimming, and practicing Chen style Tai Chi. I love to write poetry and blog regularly about topics such as mental health, sci-fi/fantasy series, faith, sexuality, and politics. View more posts