As we go into the final hours of 2017, I thought it would be good to share a little reflection on the past year, and some hopes for the next year.
There have been many personal issues that I have had to deal with through 2017 from health of friends and family, to broken relationships, to the death of loved ones. As someone who follows politics and the events in the world, 2017 has also been a rollercoaster of a year, with some ups and a lot of downs.
Romantically, I don’t think I’ve really made any progress in 2017. In fact, it seems as if I’m even further away from any possibility of a romantic relationship than when the year started.
All in all, 2017 has in many ways made me forcibly more aware of my weaknesses, of my brokenness of my darkness and demons, with the end result that I feel broken, battered and bruised.
Yet at the same time, I’ve been reminded how much God is with me, even in the darkness. Though I’ve been tested, and though I’ve come out feeling a load of pain, I also have grown more confident in my resiliency. God has reminded me that even though I may be losing many battles, I’m winning the war–by which I mean, despite all the struggles, I’m succeeding in my goal of being loving and honorable. Though I’ve been more isolated socially, I know I have a number of really close, really supportive friends, who are there for me when I need them. Though I haven’t had a romantic relationship, I also know it’s only a matter of time. I’ve been reminded again and again, that hope is as much choice as emotion, and I’ve chosen hope again and again.
So while I may have struggled, and while I may still be struggling, I’m learning and growing, and I know dawn will eventually come.
Looking forward to 2018, I hope for a romantic relationship, I hope for peace both in my heart and int the world at large, and I remain committed to practicing and holding fast to hope, faith, and love–for that triad has got me through all the darkness in 2017, and will get me through many more years to come.
Peace and blessings to you all! May your 2018 be filled with love and happiness.