Pain in my heart,
Separation.
Discord and anxiety;
I hate it when this
Happens to me.
I feel overwhelmed
And isolated.
Fighting tears that
Threaten to well
In my eyes.
I try to reason
Try to ignore the pain
But I fail:
There is no rhyme
Or reason to
The feelings I am
Suffering from.
They come and go,
And go and come again.
They are ever present in
My life.
I try to fight it
But it is a losing battle.
An inner conflict that
Threatens to tear me apart.
I fear I’ll say or do
The wrong thing,
So I do nothing at all.
Pretend that to sit alone
Is the normal state of affairs.
But it is not
And I know it.
I feel alone and
Abandoned.
Now I must wait,
And hope and see.
All will turn out
Well in the end.
I will not let
Despair claim me.
This is the fight of
My life
And for my life
Against myself.
This is the fight
I fight every day
Several times a day.
It is part of who I am.
The stakes are clear.
If I win, I go on living
No matter how bad I feel.
If I lose, I fall into a pit
I did once before
And every day I am in that pit
My life is at risk from myself.
Let us hope I win
This battle against myself.
And continue to win it every
Day of my life.
Or in one instant,
When I falter
My bright spark
May cease to exist
Consumed by the fire within.
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