Poem: Don’t Want To Love Again

Something
Has tipped the scales.
Hope is dying
Flames going out.
I am
Building walls around my heart
Blocking in
Armouring up.
I carry
Too much pain.
Can’t take
Much more of this.
I have pleaded
I have waited
For this loneliness
To end.
For someone
To take me
In her arms
Remind me
Of life and light.
There is
No end in sight.
I don’t want
To love again.
Yet
Even as I build the walls
I find myself knocking them down.
For I know
Love can’t be kept
Caged and blocked in.
And though the pain
Is great
And there are times
I want to give in,
I know
It will all be worth it
In the end.