Poem: Falling And Rising

I have done it again
Failed at being
Who others need me to be.
I do the best I can
I’ve achieved so much more
Then ever before.
Still I come up short
Not aware enough;
Not strong enough;
Not skilled enough;
Not good enough.
Not.
Enough.
I’m tired
Of letting people down;
Of continually failing.
The world is so dark right now
Days are shorter
Nights colder.
My mind becomes clouded
By grief and despair
Anger and doubt.
I feel unworthy
Yean to rest
Yearn to give up fighting.
Yet the Spirit won’t let me.
Somehow I keep going
Some small part of me
Holding onto hope
Love and faith.
So I will keep trying
And keep failing
Fall down
Battered and bruised.
Always rising
Once again.