Poem: Broken Love

As I drive
Down country roads
My demons
Catch up to me.
Tears fill my eyes
Run down my cheeks
Breath comes in ragged gasps.
I aim merely
To keep the car on the road.
The weight of remorse
Guilt and shame
Are heavy burdens.
I feel so alone
I am sorry
For all I cannot be
Cannot do
Cannot say.
For failing to be
The friend you need.
I know I try
To be loving
Kind and just.
But what worth is that
If I constantly harm
Those I love?
I cry to the Lord
Plead for strength
Or else my life to end
So no more harm is done.
The Lord answers me,
“You have the strength you need.
It is not yet time
For you to rest.
Trust in me
It will work out alright.”
I am left
With little choice
But to continue
To love as best I can.
Hope that the Lord
Can make beautiful things
Out of even
This broken love
Of mine.