Poem: Armour

ArmourBoth protects and numbs.It protects:My heart from pain;My soul from risk;My mind from despair;My body from intimacy.It numbs:My desire for love;My highest hopes;My capacity for faith;My openness to vulnerability.Tai Chi cultivates chiBy allowing it to flow.Blockages and woundsMelt away in the flow of energy;Incompatible with the armour I wear.ArmourBoth protects and numbs.SpiritGrant me the courageContinue reading “Poem: Armour”

Poem: Transitions

These past few weeksMy world has turnedUpside-downInside out.Routines and rhythmsCertainties and guidepostsDissolved into chaos.I am adrift at seaNo starts to guide my way;I am lost in a dark forestOnly my heartbeat to affirmI’m still alive.This is a time of transitionsUnsure how or whenI’ll find my way out.Hoping against hopeThat love, hope, and faithWill see meContinue reading “Poem: Transitions”

Poem: Lost Weight

You look at meAssessing and wondering.You ask,“Have you lost weight?”You say,“You look good!”I know you mean wellSo I speak softly“Yes”, I answer,Hoping affirming a factWill end this inquiry;“Thank you”, I respond,Hoping an acknowledgementWill stop this from going further.I have lost weightI am more muscledPhysically healthier than ever before.Yet this is not causeFor celebration or credit;TooContinue reading “Poem: Lost Weight”

Poem: Going Through The Motions

Guts clenchHeart achesEyes waterCold loneliness fills my soul.Pain is my constant companion.I question what a life is worthThat is so lonely;When all who I loveI must let go of too soon;When none whom I loveLove me the same.Yet I am not readyTo give up just yet.So I wake and I showerI eat and I drinkIContinue reading “Poem: Going Through The Motions”

Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride

I recently read The Wisdom of Your Body: Finding Healing, Wholeness, and Connection through Embodied Living by Dr. Hillary McBride and I wholeheartedly recommend you all do too! The author is well-known in more progressive Christian spaces as a long-time part of the Liturgists podcast; she is a registered psychologist and counselor based out ofContinue reading “Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride”

Poem: Struggling These Days

I am struggling these daysConstant ache in my gutConstant fist squeezing my heart.Fighting back tearsMore often than e’er before;Chills coursing down my spinAt all times of the day.My grip is slippingIt’s harder and harderTo find hope;To trust in faith;To believe myselfLovable and worthy of love.I knowFriends and family are onlyA phone call awayYet I can’tContinue reading “Poem: Struggling These Days”

Review: Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski

I recently read Burnout: The Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle by Emily and Amelia Nagoski. I highly recommend giving this one a read! These identical twin sisters make a potent authorial team. They present the science of the stress cycle in an accessible manner, highlight the importance of the body in completing the stressContinue reading “Review: Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski”

Book Reviews: Ace, Come As You Are, and I Love Jesus But I Want To Die

Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen This book was recommended to me by a friend and is well-worth the read! The author identifies as an asexual and does a good job of both summarizing the diversity in the asexual and aromantic communities, as well as pointingContinue reading “Book Reviews: Ace, Come As You Are, and I Love Jesus But I Want To Die”

Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope

34 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” –Matthew 6:34 (NRSV) I’ve been reflecting on these words recently, spoken by Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew today. I will share my musings in the hope that they bring some peace and hope toContinue reading “Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope”

The Toronto Van Attack Trial: Why The Stories we Tell Matter

This week, the trial begins for Alek Minassian who infamously murdered several people and injured several more using by intentionally driving a rented van on a sidewalk in Toronto in April 2018. Since the facts of the crime and the identity of the perpetrator is beyond question, the defense counsel has decided to go theContinue reading “The Toronto Van Attack Trial: Why The Stories we Tell Matter”