Poem: Losing The Fight

These last few yearsI have fought non-stopBeen beatenBatteredBruised.Have fallen downAlways got back up;Grown in waysI never imagined.Yet I fearI can’t keep going onToo wearyToo beatenToo slow.Always beforeHope was easy to chooseNow seems night impossible.The only way I knowHow to fightIs for someone else.No longer seems likelyThat I ever willHave someone who loves me to fightContinue reading “Poem: Losing The Fight”

Poem: Lost Weight

You look at meAssessing and wondering.You ask,“Have you lost weight?”You say,“You look good!”I know you mean wellSo I speak softly“Yes”, I answer,Hoping affirming a factWill end this inquiry;“Thank you”, I respond,Hoping an acknowledgementWill stop this from going further.I have lost weightI am more muscledPhysically healthier than ever before.Yet this is not causeFor celebration or credit;TooContinue reading “Poem: Lost Weight”

Poem: All Shall Be Well

These daysI am lostDrowning in griefConsumed by painDarkened by despair.My heart is achingWith cold, cold loneliness;My guts are clenchedPain fills my core.Dreams and hopesAre shredded and scattered;I am utterly alone.Had hoped beyond hopeThat this time would be different;What a fool I am!I no longer want to feel this pain.Want someone to share the loadCan’t findContinue reading “Poem: All Shall Be Well”

Poem: Daily Walk

Each day there comes a timeWhen feelings begin to surgeWalls of control begin to slipCracks begin to form.I know thenI have very little timeTo find a place outsideTo stretch my legsAnd move my bodyLet the feelings flow.As fresh air fills my lungsAs wind blows on my faceThe tears begin to flow.I take solace in theContinue reading “Poem: Daily Walk”

Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride

I recently read The Wisdom of Your Body: Finding Healing, Wholeness, and Connection through Embodied Living by Dr. Hillary McBride and I wholeheartedly recommend you all do too! The author is well-known in more progressive Christian spaces as a long-time part of the Liturgists podcast; she is a registered psychologist and counselor based out ofContinue reading “Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride”

Love On The Spectrum: A Plea For Reflection

Recently, Season Two of the Netflix show Love On The Spectrum was released. I want to share some thoughts and a plea from my perspective and lived experience as a cisgender, heterosexual heteromantic male in my early 30s to who struggles with singleness and is quite behind in terms of romantic developmental milestones. Full disclosure:Continue reading “Love On The Spectrum: A Plea For Reflection”

Review: Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski

I recently read Burnout: The Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle by Emily and Amelia Nagoski. I highly recommend giving this one a read! These identical twin sisters make a potent authorial team. They present the science of the stress cycle in an accessible manner, highlight the importance of the body in completing the stressContinue reading “Review: Burnout by Emily and Amelia Nagoski”

30th Birthday Reflections

Today is my 30th birthday! As is my habit, I thought I’d share some reflections on the past and some hopes for my future. This year, I find myself looking back not only on the past year, but on my twenties as a whole. I recall that, upon entering my twenties, I thought that myContinue reading “30th Birthday Reflections”

Book Reviews: Ace, Come As You Are, and I Love Jesus But I Want To Die

Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen This book was recommended to me by a friend and is well-worth the read! The author identifies as an asexual and does a good job of both summarizing the diversity in the asexual and aromantic communities, as well as pointingContinue reading “Book Reviews: Ace, Come As You Are, and I Love Jesus But I Want To Die”

Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope

34 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” –Matthew 6:34 (NRSV) I’ve been reflecting on these words recently, spoken by Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew today. I will share my musings in the hope that they bring some peace and hope toContinue reading “Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope”