OutsideThey say I never looked better.Seems like you’re in a good placeSo glad to see you thriving.InsideA raging tempest.Eye of the stormA void of despairEmpty of hope.Howling painRage and griefFilling my gutsWith agonizing feeling.Only reliefIs temporary.Joy and loveFrom my cat’s anticsAnd her loving snuggles.Blessed relief of pressureFrom my own touch.Resilient determinationCentering my focusFrom taijiquan.Temporary reprieveAlwaysContinue reading “Poem: Outer and Inner Worlds”
Category Archives: Poetry
Poem: Failure (July 2023)
I spend the morning pleasantlyThe day is hot but I am coolInside the house.I proceed with leisureSlow start to the week.I open my work emailFirst thing I seeA meeting slipped my mind.Just like thatIt all comes rushing backI beat myself upFor failure of memory & failure to back up;Failure at work & failure at dating;FailureContinue reading “Poem: Failure (July 2023)”
Poem: My Girl
When I first met herShe melted into my chestAs I held her in my arms;I knew thenI would be taking her home.The first months we spent togetherWere more difficult than I ever imagined.We taught each other new skillsI nursed her through illnessAnd we played togetherGrowing an unbreakable bond.At night, she would always lay with meTakingContinue reading “Poem: My Girl”
Poem: Hope and Pain
I tell myselfTo pull it togetherIgnore the cold void in my gutRefrain from clenching my belly in my graspTo ease the pain of loneliness.No one must knowThe full extent of the painI am bearing.In the pastHope lessened the painCountered the voicesTelling me I was worth nothing.Hope is much diminished of late.I struggle with apathyLong forContinue reading “Poem: Hope and Pain”
Poem: Armour
ArmourBoth protects and numbs.It protects:My heart from pain;My soul from risk;My mind from despair;My body from intimacy.It numbs:My desire for love;My highest hopes;My capacity for faith;My openness to vulnerability.Tai Chi cultivates chiBy allowing it to flow.Blockages and woundsMelt away in the flow of energy;Incompatible with the armour I wear.ArmourBoth protects and numbs.SpiritGrant me the courageContinue reading “Poem: Armour”
Poem: Transitions
These past few weeksMy world has turnedUpside-downInside out.Routines and rhythmsCertainties and guidepostsDissolved into chaos.I am adrift at seaNo starts to guide my way;I am lost in a dark forestOnly my heartbeat to affirmI’m still alive.This is a time of transitionsUnsure how or whenI’ll find my way out.Hoping against hopeThat love, hope, and faithWill see meContinue reading “Poem: Transitions”
Poem: Losing The Fight
These last few yearsI have fought non-stopBeen beatenBatteredBruised.Have fallen downAlways got back up;Grown in waysI never imagined.Yet I fearI can’t keep going onToo wearyToo beatenToo slow.Always beforeHope was easy to chooseNow seems night impossible.The only way I knowHow to fightIs for someone else.No longer seems likelyThat I ever willHave someone who loves me to fightContinue reading “Poem: Losing The Fight”
Poem: Lost Weight
You look at meAssessing and wondering.You ask,“Have you lost weight?”You say,“You look good!”I know you mean wellSo I speak softly“Yes”, I answer,Hoping affirming a factWill end this inquiry;“Thank you”, I respond,Hoping an acknowledgementWill stop this from going further.I have lost weightI am more muscledPhysically healthier than ever before.Yet this is not causeFor celebration or credit;TooContinue reading “Poem: Lost Weight”
Poem: All Shall Be Well
These daysI am lostDrowning in griefConsumed by painDarkened by despair.My heart is achingWith cold, cold loneliness;My guts are clenchedPain fills my core.Dreams and hopesAre shredded and scattered;I am utterly alone.Had hoped beyond hopeThat this time would be different;What a fool I am!I no longer want to feel this pain.Want someone to share the loadCan’t findContinue reading “Poem: All Shall Be Well”
Poem: Daily Walk
Each day there comes a timeWhen feelings begin to surgeWalls of control begin to slipCracks begin to form.I know thenI have very little timeTo find a place outsideTo stretch my legsAnd move my bodyLet the feelings flow.As fresh air fills my lungsAs wind blows on my faceThe tears begin to flow.I take solace in theContinue reading “Poem: Daily Walk”
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