Poem: Daily Walk

Each day there comes a timeWhen feelings begin to surgeWalls of control begin to slipCracks begin to form.I know thenI have very little timeTo find a place outsideTo stretch my legsAnd move my bodyLet the feelings flow.As fresh air fills my lungsAs wind blows on my faceThe tears begin to flow.I take solace in theContinue reading “Poem: Daily Walk”

Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride

I recently read The Wisdom of Your Body: Finding Healing, Wholeness, and Connection through Embodied Living by Dr. Hillary McBride and I wholeheartedly recommend you all do too! The author is well-known in more progressive Christian spaces as a long-time part of the Liturgists podcast; she is a registered psychologist and counselor based out ofContinue reading “Book Review: The Wisdom Of Your Body by Hillary McBride”

Poem: Grow Your Beard

When I was youngI wanted a beard.Thought it looked coolNothing more.When I was a young manHair started sproutingThe time to shave had come.My body betrayed meMy hand too weakMy coordination too poorMy hair growth too fast.Always spots I would missHated how I lookedHated that my failureWas all too obviousLiterally showing on my face.Many a-timeI toldContinue reading “Poem: Grow Your Beard”

Comfortable In The Nude: A Case Study of Body Confidence, Star Wars, and The Dragonriders of Pern

When I was around the age of 10, I started to become increasingly frustrated with my body. It did not perform as well as I would have liked, it was not developing the way I would have liked, and it was becoming more and more a source of ostracization and shame from my peers. YetContinue reading “Comfortable In The Nude: A Case Study of Body Confidence, Star Wars, and The Dragonriders of Pern”

Poem: Afraid To Touch

When I was youngLearning about pubertyI was curiousAnd oh, so afraid.I always loved deeplyBut was oh, so alone.Fascinated by my bodyBut afraid to touch.Afraid to grow.Afraid to explore.When I was a teenBecame a point of prideThat I had not succumbedTo my baser nature.But pride was a maskMask of fear and shame.It wasn’t untilI left myContinue reading “Poem: Afraid To Touch”

Poem: Body Talks

When I was youngI hated my body.Stomach always achingMuscles always hurting.Always too slow.Too small.Too boney.As I grew olderOnly got worse.Penis standing erectAt slightest stray thought.Heart always pounding.Everything too noisy.Too painful.Too overwhelming.Now I love my body.I know how to listenAs my body talks.When I grow sad or angryI know I need food.When I grow fatiguedI knowContinue reading “Poem: Body Talks”

Poem: Penis Moments

It has always been thereSource of curiositySource of pleasure.Both convenienceAnd inconvenience.My father taught meHow to wash itKeep it clean and healthy.I shouted with joyTo discover hair growingAll around it.I raced homeIn an effortTo have it not betray me.With golden liquid streaming forthI stood before my Grade 5 classFace flushed with shameAs a pool of wetnessTriggeredContinue reading “Poem: Penis Moments”

Poem: Escaping Loneliness

I lie in bedStaring at the ceiling.I feel the darkness risingThe lonely aching emptinessCarving out my soul.I curl into a ballHope to smother the pain.My heart is poundingSqueezed by a tight fist.Tear began to well in my eyes.Heat flushes across my skin.So I riseAnd I flee.I run and I swim.I walk.I practice Tai Chi.I tryContinue reading “Poem: Escaping Loneliness”

Poem: Learning To Love My Body

I came into the worldSmall and afraid.Had to take meForciblyFrom my mother’s womb.I am toldI was beautifulThough I cried a lotStruggled to sleep.Slow to talkSlow to walk.As I grewLearned not to trustMy own body.Grew to hate itDespise itWish it were differentSee it only as weakness.Had only a slight inklingOf the goodThe potentialIn my body.ThenSlowly butContinue reading “Poem: Learning To Love My Body”

Poem: Fleeing From Demons

As the hoursFly byTurn into daysI feel the pressure buildNeed mountingStress needing release.So I runThrough the nightSwimThrough the dayPractice Tai Chi‘Til sweat poursBody achesMind clears.Trying to outrunOutswimOut fightMy demons.It’s a fool’s gameI knowThey always catch meIn the end.But I keep strivingHoping against all reasonThat the effortWill yield resultsGreater than the sum.That I will transformInto theContinue reading “Poem: Fleeing From Demons”