Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope

34 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” –Matthew 6:34 (NRSV) I’ve been reflecting on these words recently, spoken by Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew today. I will share my musings in the hope that they bring some peace and hope toContinue reading “Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope”

On Highs and Lows

The counselor looked me in the eye with great understanding as she said that I would probably have ups and downs, like a rollercoaster, for the rest of my life. There would be times I would be depressed, and there were times I wouldn’t, but they’d alternate throughout my life. This was 10 years agoContinue reading “On Highs and Lows”

Poem: Confronting Fear

FearIs an old companion.When I was youngIt ruled meIn ways obviousAnd hidden.I confronted itAnd I grew.Overcame many of my fearsSwore never to concede again.Yet fear is trickySubtle and ever present.New fears arriveOld fears return.The testIs to not give upHold onto hopeResist the slideInto anger and hate and despair.My destinyThe destiny of all who serve theContinue reading “Poem: Confronting Fear”

On Mental Health: Tips, Tricks and Advice

This post is inspired by Bell Let’s Talk Day. I acknowledge it’s problematic, as Bell’s corporate culture does not adequately support mental health, and talking about mental health one day a year does not undo stigma and marginalization the rest of the year–but I also do think the hashtag should be utilized for the fundingContinue reading “On Mental Health: Tips, Tricks and Advice”

Poem: Morning Struggles

I go to sleepFull of hopeThat this timeIt will be differentThat I’ll be able to wakeRested and readyTo workIn a proper place.I know I’m in troubleThe longer it takes meTo fall asleepThe more I wakeThrough the night.As I stumble out of bedHop in the showerHope water against skinWill wake meMy stomach screamsIn protestGuts fail meBetrayContinue reading “Poem: Morning Struggles”

Poem: Bathroom Woes

They say you should love your bodySometimes it’s easier than others.Since I was bornHad a weak stomachWeak bladder too.Traitorous insidesWeren’t made strong enoughTo resist the weightOf anxiety and depression.Constantly rushingTo make it on time.Each trip to the bathroomExplosive and radioactiveAs a nuclear bomb.Worsens when workingYet somehow I’m the villainWhen I don’t see every spot.I’d loveContinue reading “Poem: Bathroom Woes”

Dating and Anxiety: The Fear of Asking Someone Out

I hope that this post is the first in a series of posts on dating and anxiety. Whether it is or not will, of course, depend on whether I ever start dating. Yet while I have yet to start dating, I can write on the fear of asking someone out. The fear of asking someoneContinue reading “Dating and Anxiety: The Fear of Asking Someone Out”

Poem: Dance With The Dark

“Slay the dragon”They say to me“Push on through”“Change your thoughts”.I want to rage;I want to scream;I want to laugh;I want to cry.How do I explain?Every darkness is unique.MineYou cannot outthinkIt poisons every thoughtErodes every defenseSlips throughThe smallest crack.You cannot overpowerIt only grows stronger.Brute strengthIs of the dark anyway.The only thingThat works againstDarkness mineIs to embraceContinue reading “Poem: Dance With The Dark”

A Reminder About The Power Of The Voice

Was reminded this evening of the power of the voice. I was practicing my Tai Chi routines, and had just started my saber routine-in fact, I just performed a launching move which, due to the lightweight, springy nature of my cheaper saber makes a loud clashing noise–when a pair of young women sitting on aContinue reading “A Reminder About The Power Of The Voice”

Poem: Gift Of Voice

The voiceA great and powerful toolFor good or for ill.Use itTo build up;To share;To bridge;To reach;To restore;To heal.Do not use itTo tear down;To break apart;To sow despair;To spread fear;To provoke anger.When I was youngI feared to speakSo afraidI wet my pants.As I grew olderI learned to speakMy first great fearTo be overcome.Over the yearsI’ve learnedContinue reading “Poem: Gift Of Voice”