I walk through the nightBrokenBatteredBruised.OverwhelmedWith griefAnd despair.FeelingOh so alone.I cry outFrom the depths of my soul,“LordHow long must IKeep carrying this burden?What is the pointOf all this pain?Isn’t it clearI will never beWho I alwaysHoped I could become?Would it not be betterFor me to fade awayIn my night’s sleepFreeing those I loveFrom the burden ofContinue reading “Poem: Who I Need You To Be”
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Poem: Dark Days
My days and nightsAre dark of late.StormyFull of painFearAnd despair .Anticipating griefMourning loves onesFar too often.Struggling to liveIn a houseThat is definitely notA home for me.Feeling so aloneWanting to loveStruggling to holdTo hope until it come.sBearing the pressureOf leadershipOf workAnd wonderingHow much longerUntil something gives.Easy to focusOn all this darknessTo give upTo give in.Yet IContinue reading “Poem: Dark Days”
Poem: Walking In The Dark
I amWalking in the dark.In early daysI could not seeCould not hear.Thought I was aloneI stumbledI fellI criedIn terrorAnd pain.But thenI feltAn inner nudge.“Go this way”It seemed to say.So I took a stepThen another.As the years went onDistractions grewStorms ragedPaths diverged.I found friendsCompanions in the darkLearned more and moreTo trust the inner nudge.Learned to callContinue reading “Poem: Walking In The Dark”
Poem: Don’t Want To Love Again
SomethingHas tipped the scales.Hope is dyingFlames going out.I amBuilding walls around my heartBlocking inArmouring up.I carryToo much pain.Can’t takeMuch more of this.I have pleadedI have waitedFor this lonelinessTo end.For someoneTo take meIn her armsRemind meOf life and light.There isNo end in sight.I don’t wantTo love again.YetEven as I build the wallsI find myself knocking themContinue reading “Poem: Don’t Want To Love Again”
Poem: Lonely For The Holidays
Night grows darkerWorld grows colder.Winter winds blowHolidays approach.Everywhere I lookI seeCouples embracingHearts warm together .Love bloomsPeople lean intoThe comfortOf another’s embrace.People kissBeneath the hanging mistletoe.Families gatherTo celebrate their children:Their accomplishments;Their progress;Their partners.How very painful it isTo be the black sheepThe marked man.No jobDeep in debt.No romanceNo love.Many are merryFor the holidaysLoving and full.I am alwaysContinue reading “Poem: Lonely For The Holidays”
Poem: Of Grief And Love
Death is following meNipping at my heels.All the past yearLosing friendsLosing family.More I fearStill to lose.My mind is trappedWeighed down by griefReplaying memoriesIn constant loop.Wonder ifAllowing a kissWould have changed an outcome.No.I made the choiceI had to makeAt that stageIn my life’s journey.As nights lengthenCold winds blowAnxiety and depressionGrow ever worse.Finances tightLong fight aheadLoneliness growsStrongerContinue reading “Poem: Of Grief And Love”
Poem: Morning Struggles
I go to sleepFull of hopeThat this timeIt will be differentThat I’ll be able to wakeRested and readyTo workIn a proper place.I know I’m in troubleThe longer it takes meTo fall asleepThe more I wakeThrough the night.As I stumble out of bedHop in the showerHope water against skinWill wake meMy stomach screamsIn protestGuts fail meBetrayContinue reading “Poem: Morning Struggles”
Poem: Fleeing From Demons
As the hoursFly byTurn into daysI feel the pressure buildNeed mountingStress needing release.So I runThrough the nightSwimThrough the dayPractice Tai Chi‘Til sweat poursBody achesMind clears.Trying to outrunOutswimOut fightMy demons.It’s a fool’s gameI knowThey always catch meIn the end.But I keep strivingHoping against all reasonThat the effortWill yield resultsGreater than the sum.That I will transformInto theContinue reading “Poem: Fleeing From Demons”
Poem: Life Without Love
The Lord says,“It’s not goodFor man to be alone”.If that’s soWhy do so manyFind me unlovable?How much longerMust I remain alone?I long for loveFor the reminderOf the light.For someone to holdTo be held.Yet all too oftenI must refrain from embracingLet goLet be.PleaseOh LordHelp me!I don’t knowHow much longerI can keep fightingFor a lifeWithout love.
Poem: Safe Through The Storm
I am lostWandering in the stormUnsure of myselfLonging for belongingFeeling only pain.Yet I knowThat life is moreChoosing than knowing.I chooseHope and faithHonour and love.Hold them constantlyIn my heart.These principles guide meThrough my path be clouded.I take each next stepKnowing the LordWill shape my endLead me trueTo whereAnd whoI’m meant to be.
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