Poem: My Love Is Like Jesus

My love is like Jesus.Lots of friendsBut no partners;Lots of folks who love me,Believe in meBut no lovers.My love is like Jesus.Topsy-turveyUpside downFull of hope.People say my loveWill never happen,Is unrealistic;Right idea,Wrong time.“Let it go”They advise,“Or someone will get hurt.”My love is like Jesus.Inviting all the wrong peopleMaybe too quick to embrace painMaybe too quickContinue reading “Poem: My Love Is Like Jesus”

Poem: What Is The Point?

It wells up againDark wave of despair.I feel the weightOf all I’ve failed to do;All the mistakes I’ve made.The future looks bleak indeedLonely and cold.I cry out to the Lord,“What is the point?Why won’t you let me rest?I loveBut I cannot confess my love;I loveBut I must let go out of love.I workBut I amContinue reading “Poem: What Is The Point?”

Poem: Back To Basics

I know you are weary, child.I know you are overwhelmed.Your heart is achingYour guts are clenched.Tears prick at your eyesAnd throat is tight.You are lonelyOh so lonely.Despair and grief are close at handHope is hard to choose.Breathe.Then breathe again.Come back to your center.Focus on the basicsFoundations tried and true.Before you know itBalance will be restored.

Poem: We Take What Is Given

There is it again.A pang in my heart;A well of despair.“We take what is given”,I think.Took me a whileTo understand that phrase.A call to resiliencyA declaration of hopeFor better days to come.Not a statement of greed and arrogance.Yet oh!How hard it isTo take what is givenwhen what is givenIs constant loneliness.Always to refrain from embracingToContinue reading “Poem: We Take What Is Given”

Poem: Time And Place

I have been waitingOh so longFor a time to loveA time for peaceA time to embrace.FinallyIt seems to othersThat my star is risingThat darkness is clearingLight shining through.Yet I have fearedI have wrestledWith the weightOf their hopes and expectations.For while they cheer me nowWill they do soWhen I fall?Will they seeThe beauty in weaknessIn vulnerability?ForContinue reading “Poem: Time And Place”

Poem: Farther Away

I have been waitingAnd longingAnd yearningFor loveFor romance.I have triedTo keep an open heartTo love withoutThe need for return.I have let goTime and againOut of love.These choicesHave been right and good.Yet nowLove seems father awayThan e’er before.“Oh Lord,How much longerMust I wait?How much moreMust I sacrifice?Please GoddessHelp me find loveSo that I can beReminded ofLightContinue reading “Poem: Farther Away”

Poem: Year I Find Love

It’s a new yearAnd hope is in my heart.Work is goodProductive and fulfilling.Living in a new houseNot sure it will be a homeBut at peace with itFor now.Faith is stronger than ever.Health is getting better.Yet stillI ask myself:What is it all worthIf my life is without love?While my lifeSeems goodIn manifold waysI am more lonelyThanContinue reading “Poem: Year I Find Love”

Poem: Keep My Heart Open

The city is full againAfter a quiet summer.I look aroundSee couples walking everywhere.The pain wells in my heart.I am remindedOf all the loves I’ve had.All that I’ve let go.While I knowThat was whatI had to doI fear thatWith each sacrifice of selfWith each loss of hopeI have builtBrick by brickA wall around my heart.Plate byContinue reading “Poem: Keep My Heart Open”

Poem: 27 Going On 28

I walk through the parkReflectingFilled with gratitude.I see how far I’ve comeThis past year.I see how farI still have to go.I have becomeThe leader I hoped to be.The leaderMy mentors saw in me.I am healthierThan I’ve ever been.QuickerStrongerIn controlSelf-aware.I have foundA communityTo call home.My mind is clearerThan it’s ever been.I know myselfAnd even love myselfMoreContinue reading “Poem: 27 Going On 28”

Poem: Who I Need You To Be

I walk through the nightBrokenBatteredBruised.OverwhelmedWith griefAnd despair.FeelingOh so alone.I cry outFrom the depths of my soul,“LordHow long must IKeep carrying this burden?What is the pointOf all this pain?Isn’t it clearI will never beWho I alwaysHoped I could become?Would it not be betterFor me to fade awayIn my night’s sleepFreeing those I loveFrom the burden ofContinue reading “Poem: Who I Need You To Be”