Devin Hogg

Poem: Becoming A Cynic

Another person stumblesAnother person falls.I cry out to the LordIn despair and ragePain and weariness“Is no one safe?Does no on standFor what claim?”I knowMentors have a wayOf letting us down.Role models fall shortDevelop blemishes as we grow.I used to wonderWhy so many people became cynicsNow I wonderWhy we’re not all cynicsBy the time we’re doneContinue reading “Poem: Becoming A Cynic”

Poem: Held

I walk through the nightMind dark and cloudedGuts roilingIn pain and confusion.I scream and I cryI rage and I plead .All I can do is walkNo ordered thoughtNo solid musingJust walk.I bring all to the LordExhaust what I have to sayFeel drainedWearyReady to rest .All I can thinkIs this:Loving someoneEnough to let them goMay beContinue reading “Poem: Held”

"I Wish I Were A Woman": On Gender, Destiny, and Allyship

I was watching the Oscars this past Sunday night and had just finished cheering on the Best Actress recipient when Jimmy Kimmel said a line, easily missed, but which caught my attention: “I wish I were a woman”. This line caught my attention because at various points in my life I have wrestled with thisContinue reading “"I Wish I Were A Woman": On Gender, Destiny, and Allyship”

Poem: Bathroom Woes

They say you should love your bodySometimes it’s easier than others.Since I was bornHad a weak stomachWeak bladder too.Traitorous insidesWeren’t made strong enoughTo resist the weightOf anxiety and depression.Constantly rushingTo make it on time.Each trip to the bathroomExplosive and radioactiveAs a nuclear bomb.Worsens when workingYet somehow I’m the villainWhen I don’t see every spot.I’d loveContinue reading “Poem: Bathroom Woes”

Poem: What It Is To Be Me

You don’t knowWhat it is to be me.To be at war with oneselfEvery momentWaking or sleeping.You can’t imagineThe pain I holdAlways in my heart.You don’t understandHow I can struggle so muchWhile shining so bright.Let me tell youMy dearThe brightest of starsCasts the longest of shadows.If I couldI would let you feelEven for a momentWhat itContinue reading “Poem: What It Is To Be Me”

Poem: I Don’t Know

You ask me: what will happen?How will I survive?You tell me that I mustOvercome my challengesSomehowSomeway.All I can answerAll I can sayI don’t know.I can’t see my end.All I can doIs focus on one stepOne moment at a time.Yet I don’t needTo know it all.All I need to doIs practiceLove and hopeFaith and honor.More thanContinue reading “Poem: I Don’t Know”

Poem: Wind And Rain And Pain

I went for a walkIn the wind and the rainTrying to escapeThe depth of my pain.Didn’t take longIn that elemental maelstromTo feel my soulBecome whole once more.Who cares thatThey’re soaked to the boneWhen their heart carries darknessDeeper than any ocean.As the night grew longerI trudged on and onWrestling throughMy doubts and my questions.Finding God inContinue reading “Poem: Wind And Rain And Pain”

Poem: Touch Myself

Through the dayInto the nightI am filled with pain.My dreamsProvide no escapeNo rest.As I lay myself in bedI let it all go.My handsBring my body awakeAs fire fills my blood.My hands moveMy pelvis thrustsAs I rub the pain away.I give thanksTo the LordFor the pleasuresOf human fleshOf matter embodied.I rejoiceIn the factThat I am aContinue reading “Poem: Touch Myself”

Poem: I Need Your Love

I need your loveTo show me the way.I need your loveTo drive away the pain.I need your loveWhen the demonsFill my head.When the darknessCloses in;When my heartIs near to breaking;I need your loveTo remind meOf the light.To tell meThat it’s okayTo feel joy.I need your loveThrough the good timesAnd the bad.PleaseOh pleaseGive me your love.

Poem: All I Can Offer

I can’t offerA bodyMuscled in extreme.I don’t possessConfidence in abundance.I can’t promiseA steady jobOr money in perpetuity.All I can offerIs my love;My faith;My hope.I can promiseTo never give up;To always beWilling to listen;To ever beFully and completelyHonest and true.Is that enoughFor you toTake a chance on me?Can that get us throughMy darkness and my pain?AllContinue reading “Poem: All I Can Offer”