On Mental Health: Tips, Tricks and Advice

This post is inspired by Bell Let’s Talk Day. I acknowledge it’s problematic, as Bell’s corporate culture does not adequately support mental health, and talking about mental health one day a year does not undo stigma and marginalization the rest of the year–but I also do think the hashtag should be utilized for the fundingContinue reading “On Mental Health: Tips, Tricks and Advice”

Poem: Body Talks

When I was youngI hated my body.Stomach always achingMuscles always hurting.Always too slow.Too small.Too boney.As I grew olderOnly got worse.Penis standing erectAt slightest stray thought.Heart always pounding.Everything too noisy.Too painful.Too overwhelming.Now I love my body.I know how to listenAs my body talks.When I grow sad or angryI know I need food.When I grow fatiguedI knowContinue reading “Poem: Body Talks”

Poem: What I Do For A Living

People always ask meWhat I do for a living.Wanting an answerThey can understandSomething definedBy wealth and stabilityBy age-old understanding.So I say to them“I’m setting up my own businessDoing office work from home”.But if I am honestThat is work more than livingLeading me towards deathNot life giving.I yearn to sayI amA Tai Chi practitioner,Christian mystic ,Swimmer,Continue reading “Poem: What I Do For A Living”

Poem: All Comes Down To Love

I amLost in the dark.Stuck in a funkTrappedIn a never endingDownward spiral.I clawI struggleI aimTo grow better.To overcomeTo masterMy ownBody and mind.Yet always I fall shortBecome convincedI’m doomedAlways to fail.Never achievingSociety’s expectations.ThenThrough the darknessSpeaks the voiceOf the Lord“It all comes down to love”.At those wordsMy heart feels peaceFor through I struggleTo earn wealthTo succeedIn jobContinue reading “Poem: All Comes Down To Love”

Poem: Of Umbrellas And Choices

“Where’s your umbrella?”You say smiling to me.It’s often like thatA question layered with assumptions.I want to tell youMany things.Like every umbrellaI have ever hadHas been torn apartBy wind and rainFor whichI can only faultMy weak grip.Or perhapsI shall explainThat when your incomeIs mere ODSPYou make choices.And I tend to chooseSimple pleasuresLike food and musicFilm, television,Continue reading “Poem: Of Umbrellas And Choices”

Poem: I Don’t Know

You ask me: what will happen?How will I survive?You tell me that I mustOvercome my challengesSomehowSomeway.All I can answerAll I can sayI don’t know.I can’t see my end.All I can doIs focus on one stepOne moment at a time.Yet I don’t needTo know it all.All I need to doIs practiceLove and hopeFaith and honor.More thanContinue reading “Poem: I Don’t Know”

Poem: To Show Or Not To Show

“Still your voice”They say to me.“Don’t shareDon’t trustDon’t risk.Hide the darknessOr lose hope of loveFriends and familyAll you hold dear.”I ponder and reflectPray and wrestleIn the endMy answer remains the same.“I believe inHonesty and openness.A burden sharedIs far less weight.Revealing my strugglesTakes strength untold.A risk?YesVulnerability is riskyRisk I gladly take.If darkness scares awayAll hope ofContinue reading “Poem: To Show Or Not To Show”

Poem: May Love Come Soon

Heart beatsGut tightensAgony fillsLoneliness freezes.I fall to my kneesI pray to the Lord,“O Lord,I am tired of being aloneHow much longer must I wait?Yes, I have the love ofFriends and family.It is not the same.Is there no oneWhose heart is stirred?Who longs to feel my touch?Who longs to hold me close?Who finds me worthy ofContinue reading “Poem: May Love Come Soon”

Poem: Dance With The Dark

“Slay the dragon”They say to me“Push on through”“Change your thoughts”.I want to rage;I want to scream;I want to laugh;I want to cry.How do I explain?Every darkness is unique.MineYou cannot outthinkIt poisons every thoughtErodes every defenseSlips throughThe smallest crack.You cannot overpowerIt only grows stronger.Brute strengthIs of the dark anyway.The only thingThat works againstDarkness mineIs to embraceContinue reading “Poem: Dance With The Dark”

Poem: Why I Share

I learned long agoHow to stand alone.My identityMy feelingsMy strengthActed as shield.SlowlyI learned to shareOpenly and freelyAll of mePublicly.I share my darkest secretsMy struggles and my pain.My anxiety and my depressionMy DCD and NVLDMy autism.I share the times I’m wrongI share the times I’m rightI share the times I triedFailed and learned.I share my strengthsIContinue reading “Poem: Why I Share”