I tell myselfTo pull it togetherIgnore the cold void in my gutRefrain from clenching my belly in my graspTo ease the pain of loneliness.No one must knowThe full extent of the painI am bearing.In the pastHope lessened the painCountered the voicesTelling me I was worth nothing.Hope is much diminished of late.I struggle with apathyLong forContinue reading “Poem: Hope and Pain”
Tag Archives: Mental Health
Poem: Armour
ArmourBoth protects and numbs.It protects:My heart from pain;My soul from risk;My mind from despair;My body from intimacy.It numbs:My desire for love;My highest hopes;My capacity for faith;My openness to vulnerability.Tai Chi cultivates chiBy allowing it to flow.Blockages and woundsMelt away in the flow of energy;Incompatible with the armour I wear.ArmourBoth protects and numbs.SpiritGrant me the courageContinue reading “Poem: Armour”
Poem: Transitions
These past few weeksMy world has turnedUpside-downInside out.Routines and rhythmsCertainties and guidepostsDissolved into chaos.I am adrift at seaNo starts to guide my way;I am lost in a dark forestOnly my heartbeat to affirmI’m still alive.This is a time of transitionsUnsure how or whenI’ll find my way out.Hoping against hopeThat love, hope, and faithWill see meContinue reading “Poem: Transitions”
Poem: Lost Weight
You look at meAssessing and wondering.You ask,“Have you lost weight?”You say,“You look good!”I know you mean wellSo I speak softly“Yes”, I answer,Hoping affirming a factWill end this inquiry;“Thank you”, I respond,Hoping an acknowledgementWill stop this from going further.I have lost weightI am more muscledPhysically healthier than ever before.Yet this is not causeFor celebration or credit;TooContinue reading “Poem: Lost Weight”
Poem: Going Through The Motions
Guts clenchHeart achesEyes waterCold loneliness fills my soul.Pain is my constant companion.I question what a life is worthThat is so lonely;When all who I loveI must let go of too soon;When none whom I loveLove me the same.Yet I am not readyTo give up just yet.So I wake and I showerI eat and I drinkIContinue reading “Poem: Going Through The Motions”
Poem: Struggling These Days
I am struggling these daysConstant ache in my gutConstant fist squeezing my heart.Fighting back tearsMore often than e’er before;Chills coursing down my spinAt all times of the day.My grip is slippingIt’s harder and harderTo find hope;To trust in faith;To believe myselfLovable and worthy of love.I knowFriends and family are onlyA phone call awayYet I can’tContinue reading “Poem: Struggling These Days”
Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” –Matthew 6:34 (NRSV) I’ve been reflecting on these words recently, spoken by Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew today. I will share my musings in the hope that they bring some peace and hope toContinue reading “Day by Day: On Anxiety, Depression and Hope”
The Danger Of Full Solar Spirituality
I’ve been doing some reading of late, and I’m seeing a number of convergent messages. Recently, Mary Trump, the niece of Donald Trump, published her memoir Too Much and Not Enough: How My Family Created The World’s Most Dangerous Man that was revealing of the family structures in the immediate Trump family that shaped DonaldContinue reading “The Danger Of Full Solar Spirituality”
On Highs and Lows
The counselor looked me in the eye with great understanding as she said that I would probably have ups and downs, like a rollercoaster, for the rest of my life. There would be times I would be depressed, and there were times I wouldn’t, but they’d alternate throughout my life. This was 10 years agoContinue reading “On Highs and Lows”
On The Stockdale Paradox
I have a confession to make: I am finding it hard to find balance in my life these days, especially when living with my parents and having so many different demands on my time pulling me in too many directions. This morning, the reality is sinking in that I’m heading back down to Guelph inContinue reading “On The Stockdale Paradox”
The Dreamers' Corner 