I amLost in the dark.Stuck in a funkTrappedIn a never endingDownward spiral.I clawI struggleI aimTo grow better.To overcomeTo masterMy ownBody and mind.Yet always I fall shortBecome convincedI’m doomedAlways to fail.Never achievingSociety’s expectations.ThenThrough the darknessSpeaks the voiceOf the Lord“It all comes down to love”.At those wordsMy heart feels peaceFor through I struggleTo earn wealthTo succeedIn jobContinue reading “Poem: All Comes Down To Love”
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Poem: Days Of Loneliness
My heart achesLoneliness fills my days.Mentors fallWalk paths of destruction.Friends struggleFriends drift away.Family remains brokenKept apartBy years of stubborn pride.Everything shiftsNowhere feels like home.Romantic desiresRemain unfulfilledUnexpressed.Only the GoddessRemains always with meInsufficient comfortFor my human soul.I offer up my painPray for strengthTo be found.Choose to hopeDespite all reason.Choose loveThough darkness seemsEver stronger.Loneliness fills my daysBut IContinue reading “Poem: Days Of Loneliness”
Poem: Be Silent No More
I walk through the nightRunning from demonsInside my head.HidingFrom pain and shame.I’ve been biting my tongueToo oftenThese past few months.Can’t take it anymoreCan’t keep silentWhen I disagree.Hiding too much of myselfIn my own home.I turn to the LordAsk Her for guidance.She answers me“Speak up.Speak up nowBe silent no more.You focus too muchOn “Live peaceably withContinue reading “Poem: Be Silent No More”
Poem: Dark Forest
These past few monthsI’ve been wanderingThrough a dark forestNo ideaWhich path to take.There have been nightsI’ve shuddered in the coldShelteredFrom stormy gales .There have been daysI’ve seen the sunShining through the leaves.I’ve found gladesTo see the skySometimes blue and brightSometimes full of stars.These past few daysThe forest has grown darkerAnd there have been timesI’ve onlyContinue reading “Poem: Dark Forest”
Poem: Going To Be Alright
I’ve been runningOh so long.There’s a stitchIn my sideAnd my bodyIs screaming for relief.I’ve been fightingOh so long.Bodies of my foesAre piled high.I’m coatedIn blood and sweat and tears.I’ve been carryingThis weightOh so long.Pain fills my bodyGrief fills my soul.I’ve lost so much.It’s going to be alrightIt’s going to be okay.The pain will keep comingTheContinue reading “Poem: Going To Be Alright”
Poem: Heartbreak And Betrayal
I am walkingA lonely road.My heartIs clenchedFull of painOf ashesOf despair.Gut is clenchedTied in knotsHeartbreak and betrayalLoss of lifeWorld turned upside down.This has beenMy lot of lateI long for exileMy greatest wishIs to return home.If onlyI could lay downThis weary load.Yet I knowI can’t.Despite the darknessClosing inDespite evilMade manifestMy inner lightRefuses to go out.I holdContinue reading “Poem: Heartbreak And Betrayal”
Poem: Held
I walk through the nightMind dark and cloudedGuts roilingIn pain and confusion.I scream and I cryI rage and I plead .All I can do is walkNo ordered thoughtNo solid musingJust walk.I bring all to the LordExhaust what I have to sayFeel drainedWearyReady to rest .All I can thinkIs this:Loving someoneEnough to let them goMay beContinue reading “Poem: Held”
Poem: Bathroom Woes
They say you should love your bodySometimes it’s easier than others.Since I was bornHad a weak stomachWeak bladder too.Traitorous insidesWeren’t made strong enoughTo resist the weightOf anxiety and depression.Constantly rushingTo make it on time.Each trip to the bathroomExplosive and radioactiveAs a nuclear bomb.Worsens when workingYet somehow I’m the villainWhen I don’t see every spot.I’d loveContinue reading “Poem: Bathroom Woes”
Poem: What It Is To Be Me
You don’t knowWhat it is to be me.To be at war with oneselfEvery momentWaking or sleeping.You can’t imagineThe pain I holdAlways in my heart.You don’t understandHow I can struggle so muchWhile shining so bright.Let me tell youMy dearThe brightest of starsCasts the longest of shadows.If I couldI would let you feelEven for a momentWhat itContinue reading “Poem: What It Is To Be Me”
Poem: I Don’t Know
You ask me: what will happen?How will I survive?You tell me that I mustOvercome my challengesSomehowSomeway.All I can answerAll I can sayI don’t know.I can’t see my end.All I can doIs focus on one stepOne moment at a time.Yet I don’t needTo know it all.All I need to doIs practiceLove and hopeFaith and honor.More thanContinue reading “Poem: I Don’t Know”