My days and nightsAre dark of late.StormyFull of painFearAnd despair .Anticipating griefMourning loves onesFar too often.Struggling to liveIn a houseThat is definitely notA home for me.Feeling so aloneWanting to loveStruggling to holdTo hope until it come.sBearing the pressureOf leadershipOf workAnd wonderingHow much longerUntil something gives.Easy to focusOn all this darknessTo give upTo give in.Yet IContinue reading “Poem: Dark Days”
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Poem: Don’t Want To Love Again
SomethingHas tipped the scales.Hope is dyingFlames going out.I amBuilding walls around my heartBlocking inArmouring up.I carryToo much pain.Can’t takeMuch more of this.I have pleadedI have waitedFor this lonelinessTo end.For someoneTo take meIn her armsRemind meOf life and light.There isNo end in sight.I don’t wantTo love again.YetEven as I build the wallsI find myself knocking themContinue reading “Poem: Don’t Want To Love Again”
Poem: Lonely For The Holidays
Night grows darkerWorld grows colder.Winter winds blowHolidays approach.Everywhere I lookI seeCouples embracingHearts warm together .Love bloomsPeople lean intoThe comfortOf another’s embrace.People kissBeneath the hanging mistletoe.Families gatherTo celebrate their children:Their accomplishments;Their progress;Their partners.How very painful it isTo be the black sheepThe marked man.No jobDeep in debt.No romanceNo love.Many are merryFor the holidaysLoving and full.I am alwaysContinue reading “Poem: Lonely For The Holidays”
Poem: Of Grief And Love
Death is following meNipping at my heels.All the past yearLosing friendsLosing family.More I fearStill to lose.My mind is trappedWeighed down by griefReplaying memoriesIn constant loop.Wonder ifAllowing a kissWould have changed an outcome.No.I made the choiceI had to makeAt that stageIn my life’s journey.As nights lengthenCold winds blowAnxiety and depressionGrow ever worse.Finances tightLong fight aheadLoneliness growsStrongerContinue reading “Poem: Of Grief And Love”
Poem: Life Without Love
The Lord says,“It’s not goodFor man to be alone”.If that’s soWhy do so manyFind me unlovable?How much longerMust I remain alone?I long for loveFor the reminderOf the light.For someone to holdTo be held.Yet all too oftenI must refrain from embracingLet goLet be.PleaseOh LordHelp me!I don’t knowHow much longerI can keep fightingFor a lifeWithout love.
Poem: The Candle
I have a candleBurning inside of meSteady and smallBut true.Though the winds howl;Though the rain pours;Though the storm rages;And thoughAll the forces of darknessAims to blowMy candle out:My candle burns onHolding back the dark.I long for the dayWhen love will feed the flameTransform my small candleInto a blazing sun.
Poem: Broken Love
As I driveDown country roadsMy demonsCatch up to me.Tears fill my eyesRun down my cheeksBreath comes in ragged gasps.I aim merelyTo keep the car on the road.The weight of remorseGuilt and shameAre heavy burdens.I feel so aloneI am sorryFor all I cannot beCannot doCannot say.For failing to beThe friend you need.I know I tryTo beContinue reading “Poem: Broken Love”
Poem: Leave-Taking
My heart clenchesMy breath catchesWith fearAnd anticipation.I do not wishTo say goodbye.Would that ICould spend more timeWith youPerhaps even eternity.I do not knowWhen I willSee you again.But know in your heartThat if you callI will come.I will always be hereFor you.My loveIs a giftI offer freely.Hold in my heartThroughout our separation.WaitingHopingTo be with youAgain.
Poem: Frustrated At Myself
I carryA heavy burden.Feel the cold chillDown my spine.The weightOf all my hopesDashed.All my loveIn vain.I am notStrong enough;Wise enough;Smart enough;Loving enough;To be a good friend.For her to accept meTo love me.Oh!If onlyI could beA little bit strongerA little bit better.There are timesWhen I curseThe factI’m a marked man.WiredThe way I am.“Oh Lord,”I cry,“What purposeContinue reading “Poem: Frustrated At Myself”
Poem: Screw Up
Heart clenchedTears fill my eyesThroat swells.I can’t breatheGut tied in knots.How do I keepTrying and failingAlways screwing upAlways failing short?HowOh howIs anyoneEver going to be ableTo love me?So imperfectSo foolishSo idiotic.I long so muchTo not feel this pain.To not be so aloneTo have someoneTo hold me tightTo remind of the light.But for nowAll I seeContinue reading “Poem: Screw Up”
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