Heart clenchedTears fill my eyesThroat swells.I can’t breatheGut tied in knots.How do I keepTrying and failingAlways screwing upAlways failing short?HowOh howIs anyoneEver going to be ableTo love me?So imperfectSo foolishSo idiotic.I long so muchTo not feel this pain.To not be so aloneTo have someoneTo hold me tightTo remind of the light.But for nowAll I seeContinue reading “Poem: Screw Up”
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Poem: Fool’s Love
I am a foolConstantly fallingConstantly failing.LovingBut not being loved.There is a time to embraceAnd a time to refrain from embracing.Seems to meAll too oftenLove requires meTo let goRefrain fromComfort of warm embrace.When I look at herOr even think of herMy heart clenchesTears wellSoul painsAt all that wish to beAll that I can’t be.Oh!Unrequited love!How foolishContinue reading “Poem: Fool’s Love”
Poem: All Comes Down To Love
I amLost in the dark.Stuck in a funkTrappedIn a never endingDownward spiral.I clawI struggleI aimTo grow better.To overcomeTo masterMy ownBody and mind.Yet always I fall shortBecome convincedI’m doomedAlways to fail.Never achievingSociety’s expectations.ThenThrough the darknessSpeaks the voiceOf the Lord“It all comes down to love”.At those wordsMy heart feels peaceFor through I struggleTo earn wealthTo succeedIn jobContinue reading “Poem: All Comes Down To Love”
Poem: Days Of Loneliness
My heart achesLoneliness fills my days.Mentors fallWalk paths of destruction.Friends struggleFriends drift away.Family remains brokenKept apartBy years of stubborn pride.Everything shiftsNowhere feels like home.Romantic desiresRemain unfulfilledUnexpressed.Only the GoddessRemains always with meInsufficient comfortFor my human soul.I offer up my painPray for strengthTo be found.Choose to hopeDespite all reason.Choose loveThough darkness seemsEver stronger.Loneliness fills my daysBut IContinue reading “Poem: Days Of Loneliness”
Poem: Dishonest Silence
I’m being torn apartHiding my identityKeeping secret my beliefs.Constantly biting my tongueIn interests of peace.Dishonesty I’m practicingIs haunting my sleep.Terror of truthIs spawning nightmares.What can I doTo this conflict?What is rightTo work for peace by surrendering speech?Or to speak my truthRisk consequences unforeseen?To speakOr not to speak?That is my questionIn these days of polar opposition.
Poem: Be Silent No More
I walk through the nightRunning from demonsInside my head.HidingFrom pain and shame.I’ve been biting my tongueToo oftenThese past few months.Can’t take it anymoreCan’t keep silentWhen I disagree.Hiding too much of myselfIn my own home.I turn to the LordAsk Her for guidance.She answers me“Speak up.Speak up nowBe silent no more.You focus too muchOn “Live peaceably withContinue reading “Poem: Be Silent No More”
Poem: More Alone
I am walkingA lonely road.FeelingMore aloneThan ever before.YesI have my friendsMy familyPeople who love meWho I love.Yet I am drowningIn a dark tideCrushed by loneliness.I haveNo personTo turn to.God’s comfortSeems slim.I longFor someoneTo hold at night.SomeoneTo remind meWhy lifeIs worth the living.Don’t worryI willKeep on walkingFor I have hope.Hope will lead meTo greater faithTo theContinue reading “Poem: More Alone”
Poem: Dark Forest
These past few monthsI’ve been wanderingThrough a dark forestNo ideaWhich path to take.There have been nightsI’ve shuddered in the coldShelteredFrom stormy gales .There have been daysI’ve seen the sunShining through the leaves.I’ve found gladesTo see the skySometimes blue and brightSometimes full of stars.These past few daysThe forest has grown darkerAnd there have been timesI’ve onlyContinue reading “Poem: Dark Forest”
Poem: Going To Be Alright
I’ve been runningOh so long.There’s a stitchIn my sideAnd my bodyIs screaming for relief.I’ve been fightingOh so long.Bodies of my foesAre piled high.I’m coatedIn blood and sweat and tears.I’ve been carryingThis weightOh so long.Pain fills my bodyGrief fills my soul.I’ve lost so much.It’s going to be alrightIt’s going to be okay.The pain will keep comingTheContinue reading “Poem: Going To Be Alright”
Poem: Heartbreak And Betrayal
I am walkingA lonely road.My heartIs clenchedFull of painOf ashesOf despair.Gut is clenchedTied in knotsHeartbreak and betrayalLoss of lifeWorld turned upside down.This has beenMy lot of lateI long for exileMy greatest wishIs to return home.If onlyI could lay downThis weary load.Yet I knowI can’t.Despite the darknessClosing inDespite evilMade manifestMy inner lightRefuses to go out.I holdContinue reading “Poem: Heartbreak And Betrayal”
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