When I was youngI hated my body.Stomach always achingMuscles always hurting.Always too slow.Too small.Too boney.As I grew olderOnly got worse.Penis standing erectAt slightest stray thought.Heart always pounding.Everything too noisy.Too painful.Too overwhelming.Now I love my body.I know how to listenAs my body talks.When I grow sad or angryI know I need food.When I grow fatiguedI knowContinue reading “Poem: Body Talks”
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What I Would Do With Universal Basic Income
One of the biggest frustrations for the neurodiverse community in Ontario was the decision by the Ford government to scrap the UBI pilot project. The move was met with vocal opposition, with 100 of the top employers co-signing an open letter to the Ford government protesting the move. Recent looks at the growing housing bubble,Continue reading “What I Would Do With Universal Basic Income”
Poem: Morning Struggles
I go to sleepFull of hopeThat this timeIt will be differentThat I’ll be able to wakeRested and readyTo workIn a proper place.I know I’m in troubleThe longer it takes meTo fall asleepThe more I wakeThrough the night.As I stumble out of bedHop in the showerHope water against skinWill wake meMy stomach screamsIn protestGuts fail meBetrayContinue reading “Poem: Morning Struggles”
Poem: What I Do For A Living
People always ask meWhat I do for a living.Wanting an answerThey can understandSomething definedBy wealth and stabilityBy age-old understanding.So I say to them“I’m setting up my own businessDoing office work from home”.But if I am honestThat is work more than livingLeading me towards deathNot life giving.I yearn to sayI amA Tai Chi practitioner,Christian mystic ,Swimmer,Continue reading “Poem: What I Do For A Living”
Poem: All Comes Down To Love
I amLost in the dark.Stuck in a funkTrappedIn a never endingDownward spiral.I clawI struggleI aimTo grow better.To overcomeTo masterMy ownBody and mind.Yet always I fall shortBecome convincedI’m doomedAlways to fail.Never achievingSociety’s expectations.ThenThrough the darknessSpeaks the voiceOf the Lord“It all comes down to love”.At those wordsMy heart feels peaceFor through I struggleTo earn wealthTo succeedIn jobContinue reading “Poem: All Comes Down To Love”
Poem: Dishonest Silence
I’m being torn apartHiding my identityKeeping secret my beliefs.Constantly biting my tongueIn interests of peace.Dishonesty I’m practicingIs haunting my sleep.Terror of truthIs spawning nightmares.What can I doTo this conflict?What is rightTo work for peace by surrendering speech?Or to speak my truthRisk consequences unforeseen?To speakOr not to speak?That is my questionIn these days of polar opposition.
Poem: Be Silent No More
I walk through the nightRunning from demonsInside my head.HidingFrom pain and shame.I’ve been biting my tongueToo oftenThese past few months.Can’t take it anymoreCan’t keep silentWhen I disagree.Hiding too much of myselfIn my own home.I turn to the LordAsk Her for guidance.She answers me“Speak up.Speak up nowBe silent no more.You focus too muchOn “Live peaceably withContinue reading “Poem: Be Silent No More”
Poem: Of Umbrellas And Choices
“Where’s your umbrella?”You say smiling to me.It’s often like thatA question layered with assumptions.I want to tell youMany things.Like every umbrellaI have ever hadHas been torn apartBy wind and rainFor whichI can only faultMy weak grip.Or perhapsI shall explainThat when your incomeIs mere ODSPYou make choices.And I tend to chooseSimple pleasuresLike food and musicFilm, television,Continue reading “Poem: Of Umbrellas And Choices”
Poem: What It Is To Be Me
You don’t knowWhat it is to be me.To be at war with oneselfEvery momentWaking or sleeping.You can’t imagineThe pain I holdAlways in my heart.You don’t understandHow I can struggle so muchWhile shining so bright.Let me tell youMy dearThe brightest of starsCasts the longest of shadows.If I couldI would let you feelEven for a momentWhat itContinue reading “Poem: What It Is To Be Me”
Poem: I Don’t Know
You ask me: what will happen?How will I survive?You tell me that I mustOvercome my challengesSomehowSomeway.All I can answerAll I can sayI don’t know.I can’t see my end.All I can doIs focus on one stepOne moment at a time.Yet I don’t needTo know it all.All I need to doIs practiceLove and hopeFaith and honor.More thanContinue reading “Poem: I Don’t Know”
The Dreamers' Corner 