Tag Archives: depression

Poem: Wind And Rain And Pain

I went for a walkIn the wind and the rainTrying to escapeThe depth of my pain.Didn’t take longIn that elemental maelstromTo feel my soulBecome whole once more.Who cares thatThey’re soaked to the boneWhen their heart carries darknessDeeper than any ocean.As the night grew longerI trudged on and onWrestling throughMy doubts and my questions.Finding God inContinue reading “Poem: Wind And Rain And Pain”

Poem: True Victory

I was walkingIn the night.StumblingThrough the dark.I cried out to the LordIn anguish and despair.It seemed too muchMy heart wasFull with pain .The Lord reached outWrapped meIn Her embrace.I tried to shrug her offNot to be consoled.She said to me,“My dear childYou’re losing the battlesBut winning the war”.SuddenlyChaos became orderEverything fit into place.My heart wasContinue reading “Poem: True Victory”

Poem: May Love Come Soon

Heart beatsGut tightensAgony fillsLoneliness freezes.I fall to my kneesI pray to the Lord,“O Lord,I am tired of being aloneHow much longer must I wait?Yes, I have the love ofFriends and family.It is not the same.Is there no oneWhose heart is stirred?Who longs to feel my touch?Who longs to hold me close?Who finds me worthy ofContinue reading “Poem: May Love Come Soon”

Poem: Stormy Seas

I’ve been sailing stormy seas of lateNo shore on the horizon.Clouds block the stars at nightWinds howl during dayI find my way by feel alone.Some days are goodSome days are bad.My balance shakes and wobblesSome say my cause is lostSome think my ship not sturdy .I hold to hopeI know what they do not.I mayContinue reading “Poem: Stormy Seas”

Poem: Dance With The Dark

“Slay the dragon”They say to me“Push on through”“Change your thoughts”.I want to rage;I want to scream;I want to laugh;I want to cry.How do I explain?Every darkness is unique.MineYou cannot outthinkIt poisons every thoughtErodes every defenseSlips throughThe smallest crack.You cannot overpowerIt only grows stronger.Brute strengthIs of the dark anyway.The only thingThat works againstDarkness mineIs to embraceContinue reading “Poem: Dance With The Dark”

Poem: Walk With The Dark

I was walking down the pathHeard the bushes rustle .I frozeHeart pounding with fear .I cried out,“Who’s there?”Out stepped the DarknessLooked just like meOr Shadow meClothed all in blackEyes glowing malevolently.“It’s just me,”It said,“Walk with me a while?”“Sure”I said.And on we went .“You could be so much strongerYou could be so much moreIf you hurtContinue reading “Poem: Walk With The Dark”

Poem: The Darkness Rose

The Darkness rose up todayThick and powerfulAnd strong.Almost overpowered meAlmost overwhelmed me.Very nearly drowned meSnuffing out my lightSwallowing in sea of black.I cried out to the Lord,“How do I escape?How do I go on?Help me find my way!”The Lord answered me,“Step by stepMoment by momen.tKeep walkingKeep breathing.You will find the path.”Hope stirred anew in meIContinue reading “Poem: The Darkness Rose”

Poem: Escaping Demons

I run through the nightMy feet pound the groundMy pulse beatsAnd breath quickensThe demons bite at my heels.I swim through the waterFocus on breath after breathStroke after strokeThe demons swim behind me.I move in ancient patternsAs I practice my Tai ChiSweat covers my bodyEnergy flows through meThe demons lurk just out of sight.I do myContinue reading “Poem: Escaping Demons”

Poem: To Stay Or To Leave

I stood at a crossroadsNo idea where to goClouds blind my sightNo stars to guide me by.I was full of fearFull of despairSo I picked up the phoneGave her a call .She said, “Hold on a while longer.”I said, “Thanks Mom,”And hung up the phoneStill not sure what to do.So I cried to the LordAsked,Continue reading “Poem: To Stay Or To Leave”

Poem: Love Myself Right

I lie on my backGloriously nudeMusic sets the mood.I feel tenseAnimal nature callsThere’s no time like tonightTo love myself right.I start slowGentle and smoothHips thrustFist pumpsAs images fill my head.Pressure buildsThe tempo speedsBreath quickensSweat dripsPulse beats.All my painAll my lonelinessIs consumedBy holy fire.The end is nearingEnergy flowingBody moving.FinallyThe moment of release;Peace comes in its wake.IContinue reading “Poem: Love Myself Right”