I am not okay.At workI do my bestGive my allAlways knowingI will never excel.Always fearingThe one mistakeThat will bring it allCome crashing down.I am not okay.At homeI readAnd I write.I push my bodyWork my mindTry to drive the demons awayYet they remainAlways present within me.I am not okay.My guts clenchWith stressWith pain.Tears fill my eyes;LonelinessContinue reading “Poem: I Am Not Okay”
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Poem: Spring 2021
As evening draws nearI walk the pathHeavy weight on my shouldersGut clenchedTears pricking at my eyes.People all aroundClustered in groupLaughing and chatting.I walk alone.Loneliness risesThreatens to drown meIn dark despair.I’m tired of being alone.Longing for love:To be reminded ofLight and life;To find reliefFrom constant struggle.I look aheadSee no end to his pain.Cry out the LordForContinue reading “Poem: Spring 2021”
Poem: Time Drags On
Tik-tok.Tik-tok.Time drags on.I trudge onOne footThen the other.Weariness fills my soul.My body aches in protest.My mind screams in anguish.What is there to hope for?What is there to fight for?In a life without love?“Lord,” I cry“Help me to hold onHelp me to choose hopeHelp me to trustThat love will come”.The Lord answers me,“Trust your feelings.You areContinue reading “Poem: Time Drags On”
Poem: What Is The Point?
It wells up againDark wave of despair.I feel the weightOf all I’ve failed to do;All the mistakes I’ve made.The future looks bleak indeedLonely and cold.I cry out to the Lord,“What is the point?Why won’t you let me rest?I loveBut I cannot confess my love;I loveBut I must let go out of love.I workBut I amContinue reading “Poem: What Is The Point?”
Poem: Hope Rises
Our exile drags onOne step forwardTwo step back,Sometimes feels likeWe’ll never see the end.Disasters and troublesConstantly in the news.Fear and despairAnger and griefConstantly in the air.I am overwhelmed by it all!Constantly prayingFor relief from this ordeal;For healingOf the entire world.Yet of lateDespite all logicAll evidence of my sensesI feel a stirring in my soul.Hope risesForContinue reading “Poem: Hope Rises”
Poem: Back To Basics
I know you are weary, child.I know you are overwhelmed.Your heart is achingYour guts are clenched.Tears prick at your eyesAnd throat is tight.You are lonelyOh so lonely.Despair and grief are close at handHope is hard to choose.Breathe.Then breathe again.Come back to your center.Focus on the basicsFoundations tried and true.Before you know itBalance will be restored.
Poem: We Take What Is Given
There is it again.A pang in my heart;A well of despair.“We take what is given”,I think.Took me a whileTo understand that phrase.A call to resiliencyA declaration of hopeFor better days to come.Not a statement of greed and arrogance.Yet oh!How hard it isTo take what is givenwhen what is givenIs constant loneliness.Always to refrain from embracingToContinue reading “Poem: We Take What Is Given”
On Highs and Lows
The counselor looked me in the eye with great understanding as she said that I would probably have ups and downs, like a rollercoaster, for the rest of my life. There would be times I would be depressed, and there were times I wouldn’t, but they’d alternate throughout my life. This was 10 years agoContinue reading “On Highs and Lows”
On The Stockdale Paradox
I have a confession to make: I am finding it hard to find balance in my life these days, especially when living with my parents and having so many different demands on my time pulling me in too many directions. This morning, the reality is sinking in that I’m heading back down to Guelph inContinue reading “On The Stockdale Paradox”
Living In The Pandemic: An Autistic’s POV
This pandemic hasn’t been easy on anyone. We all long for it to be over, or at the very least for some semblance of certainty and routine to be established. Yet over a month in, I’ve been noticing ways that I, as an autistic person, have some challenges that might be worth sharing. So withoutContinue reading “Living In The Pandemic: An Autistic’s POV”
The Dreamers' Corner 