Tag Archives: loneliness

Keys To Resiliency: Hope, Joy, and The Next Right Step

I have a confession: the isolation of the COVID-19 pandemic is really getting to me. The uncertainty of how long this will last, the disruption of normal routines, the lack of control over how this affects my life…all of these present unique and unprecedented challenges, at least to me. Yet what I do have extensiveContinue reading “Keys To Resiliency: Hope, Joy, and The Next Right Step”

Poem: Confronting Fear

FearIs an old companion.When I was youngIt ruled meIn ways obviousAnd hidden.I confronted itAnd I grew.Overcame many of my fearsSwore never to concede again.Yet fear is trickySubtle and ever present.New fears arriveOld fears return.The testIs to not give upHold onto hopeResist the slideInto anger and hate and despair.My destinyThe destiny of all who serve theContinue reading “Poem: Confronting Fear”

Poem: Time And Place

I have been waitingOh so longFor a time to loveA time for peaceA time to embrace.FinallyIt seems to othersThat my star is risingThat darkness is clearingLight shining through.Yet I have fearedI have wrestledWith the weightOf their hopes and expectations.For while they cheer me nowWill they do soWhen I fall?Will they seeThe beauty in weaknessIn vulnerability?ForContinue reading “Poem: Time And Place”

Poem: Farther Away

I have been waitingAnd longingAnd yearningFor loveFor romance.I have triedTo keep an open heartTo love withoutThe need for return.I have let goTime and againOut of love.These choicesHave been right and good.Yet nowLove seems father awayThan e’er before.“Oh Lord,How much longerMust I wait?How much moreMust I sacrifice?Please GoddessHelp me find loveSo that I can beReminded ofLightContinue reading “Poem: Farther Away”

Poem: Year I Find Love

It’s a new yearAnd hope is in my heart.Work is goodProductive and fulfilling.Living in a new houseNot sure it will be a homeBut at peace with itFor now.Faith is stronger than ever.Health is getting better.Yet stillI ask myself:What is it all worthIf my life is without love?While my lifeSeems goodIn manifold waysI am more lonelyThanContinue reading “Poem: Year I Find Love”

Poem: Eyes Deceived

They see my glassesMy Star Wars teesMy toysMy booksMy movies and TV shows.They hear my voiceMy fandom references.They write me offAs nerd and geekNothing special.They see I’m shortThey see me tripDrop thingsStumble around.They hear my ragged breathSee the sweat pour forthThey assume I’m weak.Unfit.They see with their eyesThey hear with their earsThey smell with theirContinue reading “Poem: Eyes Deceived”

Poem: Keep My Heart Open

The city is full againAfter a quiet summer.I look aroundSee couples walking everywhere.The pain wells in my heart.I am remindedOf all the loves I’ve had.All that I’ve let go.While I knowThat was whatI had to doI fear thatWith each sacrifice of selfWith each loss of hopeI have builtBrick by brickA wall around my heart.Plate byContinue reading “Poem: Keep My Heart Open”

Poem: Escaping Loneliness

I lie in bedStaring at the ceiling.I feel the darkness risingThe lonely aching emptinessCarving out my soul.I curl into a ballHope to smother the pain.My heart is poundingSqueezed by a tight fist.Tear began to well in my eyes.Heat flushes across my skin.So I riseAnd I flee.I run and I swim.I walk.I practice Tai Chi.I tryContinue reading “Poem: Escaping Loneliness”

Poem: 27 Going On 28

I walk through the parkReflectingFilled with gratitude.I see how far I’ve comeThis past year.I see how farI still have to go.I have becomeThe leader I hoped to be.The leaderMy mentors saw in me.I am healthierThan I’ve ever been.QuickerStrongerIn controlSelf-aware.I have foundA communityTo call home.My mind is clearerThan it’s ever been.I know myselfAnd even love myselfMoreContinue reading “Poem: 27 Going On 28”

Poem: Arena Of Life And Death

I stand in the arenaDust covering my faceSweat sliding down my back.The blows keep on coming:The fists punchThe legs kickThe swords slashThe spears jab.Causes for despairFor rage and fearFor grief and painConstantly bombard me.I dance aroundTwisting my bodyThis way and that.My sword weavingA desperate defence.All I haveIs faith and hope and love.Yet somehowThese three areContinue reading “Poem: Arena Of Life And Death”