Author Archives: Devin Hogg

Poem: Of Grief And Love

Death is following meNipping at my heels.All the past yearLosing friendsLosing family.More I fearStill to lose.My mind is trappedWeighed down by griefReplaying memoriesIn constant loop.Wonder ifAllowing a kissWould have changed an outcome.No.I made the choiceI had to makeAt that stageIn my life’s journey.As nights lengthenCold winds blowAnxiety and depressionGrow ever worse.Finances tightLong fight aheadLoneliness growsStrongerContinue reading “Poem: Of Grief And Love”

Poem: Morning Struggles

I go to sleepFull of hopeThat this timeIt will be differentThat I’ll be able to wakeRested and readyTo workIn a proper place.I know I’m in troubleThe longer it takes meTo fall asleepThe more I wakeThrough the night.As I stumble out of bedHop in the showerHope water against skinWill wake meMy stomach screamsIn protestGuts fail meBetrayContinue reading “Poem: Morning Struggles”

Poem: Fleeing From Demons

As the hoursFly byTurn into daysI feel the pressure buildNeed mountingStress needing release.So I runThrough the nightSwimThrough the dayPractice Tai Chi‘Til sweat poursBody achesMind clears.Trying to outrunOutswimOut fightMy demons.It’s a fool’s gameI knowThey always catch meIn the end.But I keep strivingHoping against all reasonThat the effortWill yield resultsGreater than the sum.That I will transformInto theContinue reading “Poem: Fleeing From Demons”

Poem: Life Without Love

The Lord says,“It’s not goodFor man to be alone”.If that’s soWhy do so manyFind me unlovable?How much longerMust I remain alone?I long for loveFor the reminderOf the light.For someone to holdTo be held.Yet all too oftenI must refrain from embracingLet goLet be.PleaseOh LordHelp me!I don’t knowHow much longerI can keep fightingFor a lifeWithout love.

Poem: Safe Through The Storm

I am lostWandering in the stormUnsure of myselfLonging for belongingFeeling only pain.Yet I knowThat life is moreChoosing than knowing.I chooseHope and faithHonour and love.Hold them constantlyIn my heart.These principles guide meThrough my path be clouded.I take each next stepKnowing the LordWill shape my endLead me trueTo whereAnd whoI’m meant to be.

Poem: Vocation

I find myselfStruggling to fitIn a vocationPurposeful and true.I am not a teacherPastor or administrator.I am a poetMystic and wandererA dreamer.Not easyTo be paidFor such things.I try to tell youThis is meBroken gutsAnxious mindDepressed heartAnd all.I live with itThe only other choiceIs to die.You want me to be normalTo fit inTo make money.Yet you failContinue reading “Poem: Vocation”

Poem: Goodbye Grey One

On the day you diedFell asleepAnd left your bodyIt rainedAll day longAnd all night.I thought this fittingAs my lifeWas suddenlyMuch emptierMuch darker.We knew this time was comingYou had a good long run.When you startedStruggling to breathMonths agoMy mind filledWith all the times shared:Memories made;Stories created;Sometimes frustrating;Sometimes frightening;Sometimes fun;Always filled with love.You were there for meWhenContinue reading “Poem: Goodbye Grey One”

Poem: When You Are Silent

Lately I’ve beenSeeking but not findingWondering what-ifAsking for guidanceNot hearing your voice.What should I doWhen my feelingsAre unclear?You remind meSubtlySoftlyThat when darknessFills the skyI can stillNavigate by stars.Trust in loveHope and faithTo guide my steps.Focus on walkingDown the path of love.KnowThat I will find you there.

Poem: Rub The Pain Away

In those timesWhen pain fills my being.When all seems darkWhen all hope seems lost.When I feelMost lonely.As I layAlone in my bedDemons filling my mind.There is one remedyTo give me chance to fight.As images fill my mindAs music fills my earsMy body comes alive.My loins burn with need.My manhood stiffensPulses and throb.sMy hands moveCaressing andContinue reading “Poem: Rub The Pain Away”