Author Archives: Devin Hogg

Poem: When You Yearn To Die

When you feelThe darkness closing inCausing youTo yearn to die:Take a breathAnd another;Think of people you love.YesYou may feelYou do themMore harm than goodBut the fact you careIs no small thing.Remember alwaysBreath equals hopeA dead man has none.Know that things can changeWhen all seems lost.Find a reason to hold onAnd another.Keep fightingFor each next momentAndContinue reading “Poem: When You Yearn To Die”

Poem: Broken Love

As I driveDown country roadsMy demonsCatch up to me.Tears fill my eyesRun down my cheeksBreath comes in ragged gasps.I aim merelyTo keep the car on the road.The weight of remorseGuilt and shameAre heavy burdens.I feel so aloneI am sorryFor all I cannot beCannot doCannot say.For failing to beThe friend you need.I know I tryTo beContinue reading “Poem: Broken Love”

Poem: 27 Approaches

The clock is tickingDays passing by27 fast approachesAs summer nears an end.What a year it has beenFilled with darknessConstantly remindedHow far I have to go.Wish I were betterStrongerMore loving.Approaching my birthdayFeeling very alone.Yet I do havePeople who love meMy friends and my family.I try to hold onTo faithHope and love.I fear I am doingMore harmContinue reading “Poem: 27 Approaches”

Poem: Leave-Taking

My heart clenchesMy breath catchesWith fearAnd anticipation.I do not wishTo say goodbye.Would that ICould spend more timeWith youPerhaps even eternity.I do not knowWhen I willSee you again.But know in your heartThat if you callI will come.I will always be hereFor you.My loveIs a giftI offer freely.Hold in my heartThroughout our separation.WaitingHopingTo be with youAgain.

Poem: Frustrated At Myself

I carryA heavy burden.Feel the cold chillDown my spine.The weightOf all my hopesDashed.All my loveIn vain.I am notStrong enough;Wise enough;Smart enough;Loving enough;To be a good friend.For her to accept meTo love me.Oh!If onlyI could beA little bit strongerA little bit better.There are timesWhen I curseThe factI’m a marked man.WiredThe way I am.“Oh Lord,”I cry,“What purposeContinue reading “Poem: Frustrated At Myself”

Poem: Screw Up

Heart clenchedTears fill my eyesThroat swells.I can’t breatheGut tied in knots.How do I keepTrying and failingAlways screwing upAlways failing short?HowOh howIs anyoneEver going to be ableTo love me?So imperfectSo foolishSo idiotic.I long so muchTo not feel this pain.To not be so aloneTo have someoneTo hold me tightTo remind of the light.But for nowAll I seeContinue reading “Poem: Screw Up”

Poem: Fool’s Love

I am a foolConstantly fallingConstantly failing.LovingBut not being loved.There is a time to embraceAnd a time to refrain from embracing.Seems to meAll too oftenLove requires meTo let goRefrain fromComfort of warm embrace.When I look at herOr even think of herMy heart clenchesTears wellSoul painsAt all that wish to beAll that I can’t be.Oh!Unrequited love!How foolishContinue reading “Poem: Fool’s Love”

Poem: What I Do For A Living

People always ask meWhat I do for a living.Wanting an answerThey can understandSomething definedBy wealth and stabilityBy age-old understanding.So I say to them“I’m setting up my own businessDoing office work from home”.But if I am honestThat is work more than livingLeading me towards deathNot life giving.I yearn to sayI amA Tai Chi practitioner,Christian mystic ,Swimmer,Continue reading “Poem: What I Do For A Living”

Poem: Skinny Dipping

I strip off my clothesSacred momentOf undressing.AnticipationFilling my heartI jumpOff the dockWind whistlingAcross my naked skin.I plunge beneathThe still waterEngulfed immediatelyIn pleasant bubbles.I swimTo the surfaceTake a breathAnd revelIn primal glory .Funny howA small changeCan feel so different.The waterDoes not careAbout the fatOn my belly,Or the sizeOf my dick,Or how tallI stand.It embraces allLightens all.TheContinue reading “Poem: Skinny Dipping”