On the day you diedFell asleepAnd left your bodyIt rainedAll day longAnd all night.I thought this fittingAs my lifeWas suddenlyMuch emptierMuch darker.We knew this time was comingYou had a good long run.When you startedStruggling to breathMonths agoMy mind filledWith all the times shared:Memories made;Stories created;Sometimes frustrating;Sometimes frightening;Sometimes fun;Always filled with love.You were there for meWhenContinue reading “Poem: Goodbye Grey One”
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Poem: Hopeless Wandering
When I am lostIn the dark.No sky to seeNo light to guide.TrappedWith my demonsIn a lonely wood.What hope is thereTo be found?How can I findMy way throughTo meadows of peaceI know exist?In those timesOf hopeless wanderingWhen all paths seem closed.When all effortsSeem in vain.I look to my coreTo my feelingsHow the Spirit guides meHow IContinue reading “Poem: Hopeless Wandering”
Poem: Rub The Pain Away
In those timesWhen pain fills my being.When all seems darkWhen all hope seems lost.When I feelMost lonely.As I layAlone in my bedDemons filling my mind.There is one remedyTo give me chance to fight.As images fill my mindAs music fills my earsMy body comes alive.My loins burn with need.My manhood stiffensPulses and throb.sMy hands moveCaressing andContinue reading “Poem: Rub The Pain Away”
Poem: The Candle
I have a candleBurning inside of meSteady and smallBut true.Though the winds howl;Though the rain pours;Though the storm rages;And thoughAll the forces of darknessAims to blowMy candle out:My candle burns onHolding back the dark.I long for the dayWhen love will feed the flameTransform my small candleInto a blazing sun.
Poem: Times Of Pain
In the timesWhen bones grow wearyMuscles acheSoul, heart, and mindAre clouded by darkness.Entire beingFilled with pain.All you want to doIs cease to feel.Don’t give up!Hold on.Practice hopeFaith and love.Fight to live.In the dayFind work to do.Find ways to rest.Move your bodyUntil the Spirit fills you.At nightReach out to God.Stretch your legsRub the pain away.Then fallContinue reading “Poem: Times Of Pain”
Poem: When You Yearn To Die
When you feelThe darkness closing inCausing youTo yearn to die:Take a breathAnd another;Think of people you love.YesYou may feelYou do themMore harm than goodBut the fact you careIs no small thing.Remember alwaysBreath equals hopeA dead man has none.Know that things can changeWhen all seems lost.Find a reason to hold onAnd another.Keep fightingFor each next momentAndContinue reading “Poem: When You Yearn To Die”
Poem: Broken Love
As I driveDown country roadsMy demonsCatch up to me.Tears fill my eyesRun down my cheeksBreath comes in ragged gasps.I aim merelyTo keep the car on the road.The weight of remorseGuilt and shameAre heavy burdens.I feel so aloneI am sorryFor all I cannot beCannot doCannot say.For failing to beThe friend you need.I know I tryTo beContinue reading “Poem: Broken Love”
Poem: Leave-Taking
My heart clenchesMy breath catchesWith fearAnd anticipation.I do not wishTo say goodbye.Would that ICould spend more timeWith youPerhaps even eternity.I do not knowWhen I willSee you again.But know in your heartThat if you callI will come.I will always be hereFor you.My loveIs a giftI offer freely.Hold in my heartThroughout our separation.WaitingHopingTo be with youAgain.
Poem: Frustrated At Myself
I carryA heavy burden.Feel the cold chillDown my spine.The weightOf all my hopesDashed.All my loveIn vain.I am notStrong enough;Wise enough;Smart enough;Loving enough;To be a good friend.For her to accept meTo love me.Oh!If onlyI could beA little bit strongerA little bit better.There are timesWhen I curseThe factI’m a marked man.WiredThe way I am.“Oh Lord,”I cry,“What purposeContinue reading “Poem: Frustrated At Myself”
Poem: Screw Up
Heart clenchedTears fill my eyesThroat swells.I can’t breatheGut tied in knots.How do I keepTrying and failingAlways screwing upAlways failing short?HowOh howIs anyoneEver going to be ableTo love me?So imperfectSo foolishSo idiotic.I long so muchTo not feel this pain.To not be so aloneTo have someoneTo hold me tightTo remind of the light.But for nowAll I seeContinue reading “Poem: Screw Up”
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