Poem: Why I Share

I learned long agoHow to stand alone.My identityMy feelingsMy strengthActed as shield.SlowlyI learned to shareOpenly and freelyAll of mePublicly.I share my darkest secretsMy struggles and my pain.My anxiety and my depressionMy DCD and NVLDMy autism.I share the times I’m wrongI share the times I’m rightI share the times I triedFailed and learned.I share my strengthsIContinue reading “Poem: Why I Share”

Poem: Escaping Demons

I run through the nightMy feet pound the groundMy pulse beatsAnd breath quickensThe demons bite at my heels.I swim through the waterFocus on breath after breathStroke after strokeThe demons swim behind me.I move in ancient patternsAs I practice my Tai ChiSweat covers my bodyEnergy flows through meThe demons lurk just out of sight.I do myContinue reading “Poem: Escaping Demons”

Poem: To Stay Or To Leave

I stood at a crossroadsNo idea where to goClouds blind my sightNo stars to guide me by.I was full of fearFull of despairSo I picked up the phoneGave her a call .She said, “Hold on a while longer.”I said, “Thanks Mom,”And hung up the phoneStill not sure what to do.So I cried to the LordAsked,Continue reading “Poem: To Stay Or To Leave”

Poem: Love Myself Right

I lie on my backGloriously nudeMusic sets the mood.I feel tenseAnimal nature callsThere’s no time like tonightTo love myself right.I start slowGentle and smoothHips thrustFist pumpsAs images fill my head.Pressure buildsThe tempo speedsBreath quickensSweat dripsPulse beats.All my painAll my lonelinessIs consumedBy holy fire.The end is nearingEnergy flowingBody moving.FinallyThe moment of release;Peace comes in its wake.IContinue reading “Poem: Love Myself Right”

Poem: Push Hands

We start slowSilent and listeningWhole body aware.Energy flowsBack and forthForth and back.Speed increasesThen complexityConscious thought is abandoned.I win by letting goI fight by giving groundI strengthen by relaxing.It becomes playJoy fills my spirit.I am capable of so much moreThan I e’er dreamt.

Poem: Chen Tai Chi

It starts slow.I moveIn perfect control.SlowlyThe rhythm speedsAnd energy flowsSuddenly it stops.I’m just getting startedFaster and fasterI move.Sweat drips downMy naked torsoFinally readyI take up the blade.The dance begins againMore lethal this timeMore demanding.Cold steel flashesBody movesAnd I amOne with the Spirit.For a momentThe cosmic tumblers align.The moment is gone too soonBut with each danceMyContinue reading “Poem: Chen Tai Chi”

Poem: Job Search

Another dayAnother lack of dollar.Time slips awaySearching the WebFor seeds of hope.Darkness limitsEverywhere I turnI am confronted by disability.“Come home”My mother says to meBut knowledge of healthKnowledge of needKeeps me away.I search some moreDespair growsFrustration mounts.“Why can’t I be normal?”I cry.“It serves a purpose.”The Lord says to me.So on I go.Keeping busyKeeping healthyBuilding strengthBuilding resilience.IContinue reading “Poem: Job Search”

Poem: When You Come For Us

When the drums beatWhen the wind howlsWhen the rain poursWhen the storm ragesWhen darkness closes inWe will stand firm.Strong and unbowedShining light for all to see.When you come for usWith violence in your heart;When you aim to spreadTerror and fearDespair and heartbreak;When war reaches our shoreAnd love ones are lost;We will stand firm.We will notContinue reading “Poem: When You Come For Us”

Poem: Sea Of Pain

The darkness is closing inI struggle to stay afloatSwimming in the sea of my pain.Storm waters rising highLightning fills the sky.She cries:“Hold on, love!Go with the flow,You can do more than you know.Though it doesn’t seem so,The skies will clearThe sun will shineThe sea will calm.And you will see thenThe glory of love.”Peace fills meContinue reading “Poem: Sea Of Pain”